He is really a good man. My heart was not wrong to choose him as my love. Some friends sometimes ask me what reasons that make me want to be with him and keep doing LDR. When I answered them, then they continue asking with this annoying question “are you sure?” And I proudly answered, “yes, I am sure”.
One time, I had a chance to know him better. And my heart was not wrong to feel his kindness, his wisdom, and his patience. Those days I really feel being loved, being respected, and being served well. I can see his efforts to make me happy, and I really appreciate it.
One day, he proposed me. How happy I was. One thing that touches my heart is that he will do whatever I asked him to do to make our dreams come true, even to sacrifice his belief. He promised to make me happy. But, all bad possibilities came to my head that prevented me to say yes.
God please help me to decide. I’m really confused and don’t know what to decide.
Thee haak khong khoy, koy haak jao, koy torng karn jao, koy kid hod jao..
La tee sa vat, khob jai lai lai
This is God’s Massage, the God who made earth, made it livable and lasting, known everywhere as God: “Cal to me and I will answer you. I’ll tell you marvelous and wondrous things that you could never figure out on your own”.
Jeremiah 33:3
Beginilah firman TUHAN, yang telah menjadikan bumi dengan membentuknya dan menegakkannya-TUHAN ialah namaNya. Berserulah kepadaKu, maka Aku akan menjawab engkau dan akan memberitahukan kepadamu hal-hal yang besar dan yang tidak terpahami, yakni hal-hal yang tidak kau ketahui.
Jeremia 33:3
Hoi Retno, itu janji TUHAN, jangan confused.
March 12, 2008 @ 10:47 amRelax saja.
Groet,
Wooaaahhh partly i understood ur laosian language… (by guessing for sure)
Wiseman said that when u believe, there is always a way out. For belief, we cannot bargain,its a must.Make up ur mind. After all this thing can be solved, just try to open your heart and the things that u worried about will be gone.
If he can sacrifice, why can’t u? Do u remember what vice versa means? Everything in this world is working like that (should be). So its all in your hand. Consider it deeply for u not feeling sorry in the future
Gambate gozaimasu ne…..
March 12, 2008 @ 6:18 pm^_____^
@ tante tut,
bedankt..
iya saya yakin Tuhan akan memberikan petunjuk-Nya untuk saya. Sekali lagi makasih buat support dan nasehat2nya tante..
@ tuti,
Sabaidee..khob jai lai lai for your comment! Yes, why can’t I sacrifice? Am I too selfish?
There are some other difficulties that I’m thinking about, not just about sacrifice or not to sacrifice.
anyway, thank you very much!
March 12, 2008 @ 11:49 pmThis situation goes well beyond my own experiences, but it surely resembles the hypotheses if I DID continue my own LDR. Mbak, I really don’t know what to say or what to advice. But one thing is sure, making mutual sacrifices is perhaps the most beautiful thing in a relationship after being loved in the first place. So, I do agree with Tuti. In addition, Ibu is right on the fact, that we should keep our trust in the Lord.
Mbak Enno, I wish you all the best! And let’s hope that someone in the family DOES succeed with LDR! =)
JCBU,
March 14, 2008 @ 4:46 amde Didit
Enno thee haak khong khoy (my love),
If I were born in a high class, it would be nothing to block our dream. I don’t know how to tell you, I do want to marry you.
And I apologize for all inconveniences during your stay in Laos. I felt so guilty to what I did.
Enno, I hope you understand my point. Love you more and more (much more than you do)
March 14, 2008 @ 4:35 pm@ de didit,
thanks yah
My mind has been so complicated, i just need more time to think and consider all possibilities that might be happen in the future.
Am I too worried? Am I too selfish? Yes I think so. But actually I also think about him. Don’t want to make him suffer. Thinking the best way for both of us. =)
@ Kham,
thanks for every thing..
March 15, 2008 @ 12:55 amI love u more than u think i do