It has been almost a year, quite long for a long distance relationship. Now I feel a bit tired because I have no idea to what will happen with this relationship in the future, still blank have no imagination about that, at all..!
You are far away from me. I have nobody when I’m sad, when I’m lonely, when I need support or when I am sick. We quite often to keep in touch by phone, chat or sms, all efforts to keep this relationship well, but I need you more than that. When I feel suffer, I sometimes hide it from you, I didn’t want to make you worry about me. I don’t want to add burden on your shoulders, just want to make you happy.
I always try to be loyal, endeavor not to cheat. Couple times I nearly made domestic relationships, although then they were failed. But few months ago another man came to me and gave me attention, knocking my heart. I’m falling in love. Does it mean I cheat? I feel different, I feel so happy when I meet him. This new man makes my life beautiful, gives me more spirit. I often feel so confused and don’t know what to do. I don’t have any special relationship with him because I have one out there, but every day I’m waiting to meet him, he makes my days nice.
When I again think about our relationship then I feel worried. I often thought, if I could fall in love to another man, why can’t u? Then I started asking you, investigated you, whether you have another special woman or not. Then our relationship was in trouble, we started to argue to each other. I felt so sorry; I didn’t mean to hurt you. I was so worried you fall in love to another just like me. I know I am so selfish, but I am really confused. I love him and you.
When I asked you, what we should do with this relationship, you did never answer me. You questioned me back. You always wait me to decide. Honey, I really have no idea. I even don’t know that I can meet you again or not. It’s so tiring, don’t you think so? We need to do much more sacrifice to make our dream come true, but I am afraid I can’t do that.
Should I let you go?
Still love you..
Enno, u showed me aboutanother blog which say about distance relation. U can read it once more to get some understanding deeply.
I know its hard to get that kind of relationship, but if u have conviction in yourself and him, everything will be just fine, but if u unsure with yourself, just consider it once more and make decision
And its naturally happen, when u have no one besides u, someone can easily come to u. Just right man in the right time. It can be happen to all of us. So just be patience or leave him
Good luck m’friend
May 24, 2008 @ 4:58 amThis short story is in a nutshell THE biggest trouble one can have in a LDR. Not knowing what to do in the future; whether the other is loyal or not; or whether the sacrifices you make are enough to make the LDR work.
Mbak Enno, I’ve been there and done that. And the problems you face, were indeed the same problems I faced as well. Besides the falling in love with another though. It’s easy to choose the easiest way out, but we find ourself, if we indeed challenge life and go for our dreams. Iya ngak?
One more thing. Like I often mentioned, LDR ask for additional attention and sacrifices. Let alone the headaches one often get. But, in the end, it takes TWO. You and Khan.
Best wishes and Good luck.
June 2, 2008 @ 2:41 amTuti and d’didit
June 3, 2008 @ 6:58 pmthank u, and i am now still observing to think about everything for my future..