I can’t believe that finally I use this title for my posting. Yes, I have to let it be. I give up. Five months ago, the last time we met, I had never thought that maybe it would be our last meeting.

Long Distance Relationship is now breaking my heart again. I can’t believe that every thing’s changed so quickly, much faster than I thought. You’ve changed, a lot. I tried to remind you about that but u can’t see it. You always blame me for every protest I’ve made.

It’s so hurt when you have no time for me while I know u have time for others.

It’s so hurt when you are always angry to me while u keep laughing to others.

It’s so hurt when u don’t remember me while u remember others.

It’s so hurt when I know nothing about u but others do.

It’s so hurt when I can’t call u ‘mas’ in public, but others can.

It’s so hurt when I have to know about u from the media, not from u personally.

It’s so hurt when I have to understand u but u don’t even try to understand me.

It’s so hurt when I need u but u are never there for me.

It’s so hurt hearing u say rude words to me.

It’s so hurt when I realize that I love u this much, even up to now.

I miss every thing we had done before u changed. I miss ur jokes before it’s turned to be angriness. I miss ur big attention, when we were on the phone almost every day. I miss the time when we shared every thing in our lives. Where have all those things gone? Why can’t I feel it now?

The worst thing is I remember u for every thing I do in my live, I remember u at any place I go, and I remember u every night before sleeping. All have been so much unforgettable. And one more thing, I still charge and carry my special phone and hope it’ll be ringing again someday.

Such a hard time for me. I can’t do anything but let it be. Good luck for us, mas.